did it!

i finally did it. i don't know where i got the guts from! :D better now, better. :D

:(

trials are coming in a week time. and i find myself suffering in silence, secretly sad and depressed over feelings of loneliness, not just because of studies. i often stop to wonder this depression is merely a temporary feeling that arises upon seeing happy couples around. many times, i just shrug of the feelings, but it doesn't go completely. you'll never know how much i want you and how much i need you. but, oh well. to know someone's character it could take a life time. she's treating me cold? oh well, life must go on! wait till after spm, i will try my very best to...

hmm. this might be my last post before trials. i'm off.

i tried to be chilled but you're so so beautiful that i'm melted over and over again.

birthday happy!

happy birthday yuen ching and chun keat! craziest party ever! will post up the pictures soon, very soon.

:(

I'm going to smile like nothing wrong, talk like everything's normal, act like it's nothing happened to me and pretend that she doesn't hate me.

i love you and you hate me.:(

updates

short updates.

1. i passed my driving! :)
2. purple house guys volleyball team advanced to finals!
3. bronze for badminton?
4. congratulation to Mr. Timothy Leong and Mr. Chin Chee Ken for their...
5. i'm going for prom!

this is my worst week of the year and don't ask why. i have no mood to blog for today. :( pfft.

3-2

i missed man united's asia tour...




and omg look at my bro! damn jealous man! anyway tigers did a great job :) amri yahya made a different.

P

gonna get my liscence. gonna be illegal. on tuesday. wish me luck babe. :)

i'm off.

tagged by qiao xin!

1. Besides your lips, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?
~ my chest -.-

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
~ shit, have to wear contact lens.

3. Who was the last person/people you took photo with?
~ i think it was pau ling.

4. Would you consider yourself spoilt?
~ Nono.

5. Will you ever donate blood?
~ maybe.

6. Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex?
~ yeah..

7. Do you want someone to be dead?
~ maybe!

8. What does your last message say?
~ later go supper k?

9. What are you thinking right now?
~ a perfect girl.

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
~ yea.

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
~ 1.37 a.m., because...

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
~ topless now.

13. Is someone in your mind right now?
~ Obviously but i don't think she knows that she's in my mind. =(

14. Who was the last person who text you?
~ wee liam.

Tag 10 "lucky" people do this quiz.
1. Loo Suk Munn
2. Loh Yuen Ling
3. Hee Pau Ling
4. Ivan Lim Huan Wen
5. Celine Chung
6. Yong Yuen Ching
7. Yau Yee Seng
8. Timothy Leong Hin Mun
9. Ying Fook Lee
10. Kuh Fui Swen

15. Who is number two having a relationship with?
~ no one?

16. Is number three a male or female?
~ female!

17. If number 7 and number 1 get together will it be good?
~ nopeee.

18. What is number 1 studying?
~ books la.

19. Is number 4 single?
~ complicated.

20. Say something about number 6.
~ nice and pretty.

21. What you think of number 3 and number 6 being together?
~ Both are girls.

22. Describe number 9.
~ Horny!

23. Do you like number 8?
~ i love HIM. as a friend.

=(

crying inside...

<3

i want you to be mine, truly.

浮夸

Dear Mr Ivan Lim here's your 浮夸 lyrics.

有人问我我就会讲
但是无人来我期待
到无奈有话要讲
得不到装载
我的心情犹像樽盖等被揭开
咀巴却在养青苔人潮内
愈文静愈变得不受理睬
自己要搞出意外像突然
地高歌任何地方也像开四面台
着最闪的衫扮十分感慨
有人来拍照要记住插袋
你当我是浮夸吧
夸张只因我很怕似木头
似石头的话得到注意吗
其实怕被忘记至放大来演吧
很不安怎去优雅
世上还赞颂沉默吗不够爆炸
怎麽有话题让我夸做大娱乐家
那年十八母校舞会
站着如喽罗
那时候我含泪发誓各位
必须看到我在世间
平凡又普通的路太多
屋村你住哪一座情爱中
工作中受过的忽视太多
自尊已饱经跌堕重视能治肚饿
末曾获得过便知我为何
大动作很多犯下这些错
搏人们看看我算病态麽
幸运儿并不多
若然未当过就知我为何
用十倍苦心做突出一个
正常人够我富议论性麽
你叫我做浮夸吧
加几声嘘声也不怕我在场
有闷场的话表演你看吗
够歇斯底里吗以眼泪淋花吧
一心只想你惊讶
我旧时似未存在吗加重注码
青筋也现形话我知
现在存在吗凝视我
别再只看天花我非你杯茶
也可尽情地喝吧
别遗忘有人在为你声沙

1,2,3,4 I love you!

i'm currently with a song 1,2,3,4, I love You by Plain White T's. it's exactly what i'm feeling now man, exactly. :)

1,2 - 1 2 3 4
give me more loving then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely getting mad,
i'm so glad i found you.
i love being around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2, 1 2 3 4,
there's only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
there's only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)
give me more loving from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
i'm so glad that i found you.
i love being around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
there's only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
there's only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.i love you
(i love you)
you make it easy, its easy as 1234
there's only one thing two do three words four you i love you
(i love you)
there's only one way two say those three words
that's what ill do i love you
(i love you)
i love you i love you.
one two three four i love you.
(i loveyou)
i love you
(i love you)


i really really do! :)

<3

the feeling is really strong. me myself knows that i really really do like you. i tried to be chilled, but i just can't chill. i'm trying so hard, but i just can't do it. i know that you'll never like me. a girl like you will never like a useless guy like me. but what i want you to know is, you're all i've ever wanted. i'll be waiting, keep waiting..

*you know who you are.

RIP :(

RIP


Michael Jackson (1959- 2009)
inducted into the Hollywood Walk of Fame in 1984, Jackson has had a notable impact on music and culture throughout the world. He broke down racial barriers, transformed the art of the music video and paved the way for modern pop music in his own country. Jackson's work, distinctive musical sound and vocal style have influenced numerous hip hop, pop and R&B artists, including Mariah Carey, Usher, Britney Spears, Justin Timberlake and R. Kelly. For much of his career, he had an "unparalleled" level of worldwide influence over the younger generation through his musical and humanitarian contributions.

:(

rka day is coming and these are my results.

BM- 61
BI- 71
BC- 61
Maths- 65
Sejarah- 50

and here comes the good results

Moral- 26
Additional Maths- 16
Bio- 32
Chem- 37
Physics- 37

5 fails, it's 5!

how am i gonna face my parents? :(

pain oh pain =(

it's pain! pain! can die! gawshh! rugby... ouchhh

happy father's day!

Happy Father's Day Papa! i love you!

This is my beloved papa. His friends and my mom call him 'gou lou', means tall guy in english. since young, my papa always call me shorty. and i'll definitely fight back: i will be taller than you one day, you wait and see! until now, my growth is stunted and he's still taller than me. haha, i'm speechless now.

My papa is a great family man. He is caring and he is a great cook, he even cook better food than my mom. he is lame too, he always crack out lame jokes that will make you laugh your ass off.

oh yea, listen to his nag, can die weih! but i still love you lah papa. i will not disappoint you, i'll strike straight A's in my spm exam! trust me papa. lastly i hope you'll like the present i bought for you! love you!

i'm back

ladies and gentleman, i'm back! with DARK skin and red nose, am now a hak guai. maybe you can't even recognize me when you see me in the street. tall, dark and handsome yo!

slept almost all the way in the bus during the journey to kapas. i felt bloody tired most probably i didnt't sleep in the night before the trip. reached kapas in the evening and there's hell lots of mosquitoes! i think i killed more than 100 mosquitoes in a day. seriously, the mosquitoes don't scare of anything. even your whole body moving, it will still come, how scary. i even asked ming long who is in the same tent as me a question: would you choose to live here with the mosquitoes forever or you'll get montri's face. i'm sorry montri if you see this! xD

we cooked for almost all our meals. my group members are lucky to have me as their group leader and theri head chef! haha, really lucky, my food rocks their socks! someone even licked the pot that cooked curry! =)

the second days we did a lotpulau kapas and tasik kenyir was not bad. did canoeing, snorkling, swimming, beach volley, beach rugby and a lot more. whooah! fun man!

lazyy to update. go to my facebook for the pictures! tata.

went ou to watch 17 again with munn and yuen ling the girlf. zac efron is hot! that's what they said. here's the pictures.

life after exams!

went out with the sweetest girl!

sexxay!

caught a sissy playing at the batting cages! xD

went swimming!

went dinner with yee seng, nicholas and their kakis.

the sadest moment after exams with jonathan the rab**t. just joking!

got to go now, to pack. going to be MIA for 6 days from 3rd of Jun. Don't miss me. xD

really helpless when she smiles. <3

united vs barca

Man United lost, terribly.. Alex isn't God, AIG

=(

tamat darurat

21 May 2009, tamatnya darurat sementara pelajar tingkatan 5 SMK Taman S.E.A!

=)

Part 2 =)

sweetest girl!
ivan's party

help me~ i'm so lazy to update

To the special one in my heart

When we're together or when we're apart,
you're first in my thoughts and first in my heart.

i hate my mom!

=)

Due to munn's request i'm gonna blog about what happened pass two months. time really flies. let the picts do the talking. =) this is only part 1.


During CNY at jia kent's house.


went leo idol finals with fook and woon to support chris! he did a great job.

my favourite pict yo! from left; standing: yuen ling the girlf, munn. sitting: timothy the wolf, me, ivan, woon, yee zhian, nanda and kok.


candid!


freestyle.


freestyle #2.


class pict.


class pict #2


muddy place playing handball.


my school football team jersey. a waste of money, but yeah..


Munn =)

went for jason Mr.A-Z concert.

home-made mc flurryy.

-

i don't care about it anymore. =)

it's been awhile.

i've not been updating my blog for quite sometimes. spm is coming and volleyball mssd is even nearer. it's at march. and my time to study is getting lesser.

no more partying.
no more drinking.
no more playing.
no more wasting time.
no more lazy.
no more excuse.
no more teasing.
no more troubling my friends and family.
less computer.
less tv.
less sports.
more tuitions!
more revisings!

10 more months left for me to pick up my form 4 and form 5 syllabus and 2 more months till volleyball mssd.

i'm really wondering what happened to me? that's so frustrating and pissifying. i've been off form since beginning of january until now. what happened to my first ball digging? why am i so blur when i'm playing? why am i dreaming? sir said i was in love and i've got nothing to comment.

when it comes to studies, it's a little better. but my progression is slow, SLOW. Study hard and and make your family proud of you! you can do it man. look at you now? what is this? you're now more like a piece of shit! no more, no more life like this. chinese new year is over! no more excuses! wake up boy!

i really hope that i can score straight A's for spm, that's my main goal. that's for me to get a good and comfortable job and make big money. i think that's the only way to get her heart. i vow to give her comfortable life without worrying of anything, give her whatever she wants and make her as happy as i could. she can stay at home taking care of our future kids. don't have to work... this will be her ideal life.

so, study hard! really HARD!

*you're not mine, but i'm yours!

First week of school.

first week of school! =) that's the first time i did all my homework and paid attention to every single teacher. it was a great achievement for me i guess. hah

my birthday just passed 3 days ago. thanks to those humans that wished me and the presents. really appreciate. oh yea, haha can drive soon but too bad my parents not going to buy a car for me, even those secondhand car under 30k =( but it's okay. my one and only birthday wish is to get straight A1's in my spm. really hope that i can do it.

well, fyi football and volleyball mssd coming and i still not sure what should i choose. no doubt i love football the most, but i had trained so hard for volleyball since last year. we train thrice per week and even public holidays. sir wasted a lot of time for training us and now the team is formed and we can already play quite well. and i'll feel really bad if i waste sir's hard work. really hope that i can both, that's the best!

OR

*i'm a die hard cristiano and beckham fans.

updates for sarawak expedition.

This XPDC opened up my eyes and certainly others too to many things that we've yet to know and yet to discover.

Like... why is the rock formation so?
Mosses always point to the east.
And many more.

Nature truly is amazing and I crave more for knowledge.

First, Bako National Park.
-Very Nature-ish.
-Jungle Trekking which i don't like it the most.
-Seen Probocis monkey and viper.
-Saw bunch of scouts from Hong Kong and ang mos.
-Destiny or fate, a pair of twins who are from PJ studies at La Salle and knows Aaron's mom!
-Witnessed the mother of the twins bitten by viper. Just so you know, if the head is triangular-ish, it's deadly.
-Rainbow. Two rainbows. Two perfect rainbows. Simply amazing.
-fyi, i can swim but not float. so when i swim until i've got no energy i'll drown. i nearly drowned when i was swimming at the waterfall. luckily teck yan saved me. whoo.

we saw wild boar.

Second, Bako Homestay.
-Had a foster parent which is super friendly.
-Foster mother's cooking is the best!
-Experienced life of orang kampung.
-Kenduri kahwin.
-BBQ.
-An adik angkat.


Then we went to a cultural show. Entertaining. And us Kembara owned the whole stage when we were given the chance to go up the stage.

Third, another homestay at some Pantai Damai
-Really good facilities and warm-hearted host.
-Beach soccer! i scored twice and one assist for shiat teen. haha.
-Experienced the tide.
-Saw the wave splashing against the wall.
-Danced!

Fourth, somewhere I dunno where
-Walk around Kuching town.
-Walked under the rain back to our house.

Gunung Gading.

the sky, how pretty.

Fifth, Kubah National Park
-Helped sir preparing for dinner.
-Sexy Nigel and Wei Jun.
-Overflowed with dirty shirts .
-Swimming under the rain.
-More trekkings.
-Singing performance. i sang, ewww.
-Mamma mia!
-Titanic panic.
-My blood sucked by a leech as big as your pinky finger. ouchh!

Sixth, Gunung Gading National Park
-Best accommodation.
-Pool!
-Water polo!
-Trekkings.
-Waterfall!
-Games with a volleyball.
-Anger sparked between guys.

the waterfall.

At Serikin, bought things. Souvenirs.

Seventh, another homestay where I dunno where it is...
-River cruise.
-Last night...

Then we headed to Fairy Cave and then Wind Cave. In the van, it was superb! I felt the strong wind gushing. Syokness!

the cave.

Mr. Bat!

After our lunch, we went shopping.

We went back to the house, bathed, packed and moved out.

posed with our 'shoe bag' before we left.

To the airport. Yup.

Many many procedures.

And I guess the last day proved to be the best.

Felt sad, i don't know why.

Back at LCCT, Sir gave us a short speech and Lik Man, the pres presented him and Pn. Fari the items that we got for him with our RM5 each.

shiat teen!

Kah Lin

Sheena!

Nigel, woon, wei chun and me

me, william, wei jun and jia kent

the form 3s and form 4s.

The form 5s with Sir and Pn Fari.

credits to khai sern.
i just modified a bit, the rest copied from khai sern. lazy lah.

2009

2009; a whole new year. but for me, personally i don't feel good and i don't really like it. firstly cause of SPM. plus i'm still in my 2008. 2008 was a blast. this was so called a honeymoon year. i've chose pure science class which i'm fcuking regret over it now. but i have to say that my classmates are cool, they rocks and i love them. hah too bad i didn't really study hard even when final year exams. and i screwed almost all my subjects badly. and not to forget, i've got my first ever '0' mark for my add maths exam in the beggining of the year.

i joined leo club for learning and experiencing something new. it's a place for us to meet more girls too. been to LLC and it was seriously FUN. it rocks my socks. and i met some nice girls.

i joined volleyball team this year. but the main purpose is not really because of the sports, you know i know lah. hah. but after a few training sessions, i found that the game is cool and i love it. spiking is COOL. that's why i'm so into volleyball. no doubt i wasted a lot of time in volleyball, 3 trainings per week, and it decreased my time for studying. but i've got no regret.

besides that i went to sarawak expedition under the outdoor pursuit club. the 11 days trip was awesome. been jungle tracking, swimming at the waterfall, homestay, river cruising and lots more cool stuffs.

pictures will be up soon. =/ too tired for now.

conclusion: 2008 was a blast, 2009 please stay away from me. =)